Film Reel

2.19.2011

Obsession

Is that the best way to describe this feeling?

All that keeps running in my head

Are flashes of you and her

you and this ambiguous girl

Passionate

Lying in bed

Loving each other

Needing each other

It goes on and on

Replaying in my head like a film reel

Get.out.of.my.head

Put me out of my misery

I haven’t spoken to you

I haven’t seen your face

But since that day you told me you were dating her

The seed was planted in my brain

To start thinking about you again

But you with her.

Is she as good as I was?

Does she pleasure you the way I did?

I’d never heard those sounds before

Telling me where to go

Where to press

Where to take you where you’ve never been before

I miss those sounds

I miss being able to be somewhere blissful with you

Those other girls haven’t sounded like you

Haven’t tasted like you

Damn.

I cant keep doing this to myself.

I don’t even know what I’m feeling anymore

Disdain? Anger? Sadness?

Please can you just tell me what it is?

And make it go away?