2.14.2011

2.14.2011

two.
the number of times i've fucked up.
the number of times i didn't trust you
the number of times i didn't believe in our friendship.
i let myself get influenced by what i thought was love
something that i will always regret.
you were trying to be my friend
my rescuer
my savior
but i wouldn't listen
it took a break up to do that for me.
seeing you now is almost surreal
the feeling of starting over
another chance i don't feel i deserve,
but am so thankful i have.
you have been a constant in my life
stable? maybe not. *chuckle*
but a constant.
someone i know will be there
someone i will always have beyond Notre Dame.
i'm here for you
the only way i know how.
listening.
taking in your mile-a-minute talks
and just memorizing your reactions
so that the next time
you wont have to tell me.
i'll already know
you've impacted my life for the better
more than you even know
and made this last semester of senior year so far
the best i've had.
i know you won't accept this as a compliment
but writing down my thoughts has to count for something
so if anything,
thank you from the bottom of my heart.

happy valentine's day <3